furthermore, here's me being driven around like a little spoiled princess, just wanted to point that out.
it was such a good day i'm still living there a little bit.

something to remember.
(from tumblr (idk source sorry))

here's what my day looked like i just want to document it because it was sooo good: 

firstly, it was very pretty this morning and i particularly thought this tree was beautiful. the world looks so friendly and happy and welcoming on days like this, i wish they were more often:

and then, during the middle of the day, i went for a drive with my pal and we stopped at a drive-thru mcdonalds, and the food took so long to arrive! literally so long. so we were sat in the car listening to 2ne1 which is a good day for me, and i sat like this to "get some sun" (in a way):

and this is the beastly monster we waited all that time for (apparently they make them like this in america, this is a "hand-made" version of whatever beast this is) (ewww): 

and then on the drive back i suddenly transformed into "one of those people" who take photos like this in the wing-mirrors of cars, but i was really happy even though we were in traffic and running kinda late... but i didn't mind because it was sunny and friday and i am just too chill and happy:

and then on the way home i picked up a pretty little souvenir for myself and i was very happy, and now i have stuck it on my wall so that i can look at it every day:

and that's a story of my day, i wish i could re-live it again and again

progress is being made...
in terms of savings (mainly).
i've also just managed to purchase myself some new clothes
because i don't think
i can justify buying new clothes in a few months' time
when money will be shorter
and there will be more pressing things to buy,
like... well, idk, food i guess.
that kinda stuff.
"functioning adult" stuff.

know that i'm pouting as i write this.
angry pouting.

some people seem to be convinced that the world is coming to an end
again
and all i know is that it's irrelevant.
you can't stop the world ending.
you can only try and exist in the moment.
it's not deep
and it's not profound
but it's something to calm you down.
you're here. you'll never be "here" again
and nobody else is "here".
it's not helpful but it can be, at times.
i guess that's more of a reminder
to myself than anything else.

i've only got 23 days now, until the "end".
that's why i found that last paragraph strange to write.
to be entirely honest with you
i have been "counting the days"
since the first day - ask my dad,
who i informed on my first day at secondary school
of the number of days i had left -
and i'm not sad to leave.
i'm sad to grow up.
but i've no choice and so today, in this moment
(it's sunny so i'm feeling good)
i'm just trying to live in the moment.
sometimes i'm excited about the future,
sometimes i freak out
(okay i freak out more often than not).
but the freak outs don't last that long.
it's fine. everything will be fine.